February 12, 2024- from a writing way back in September ’23.

Today feels like the beginning of something great.  I suppose every moment is the beginning of something great. 

Sometimes, I wonder if being human lends itself to suffering- yes, we know all the great philosophies of the world hold this premise, but it is held as a trap from which one must climb out of.

But what if you have lived in the bliss of a blessed life? What if you are aware of the unity of all things? What if you recognize that all of life is an illusion and that each being is the center of that illusion, creating the world from that point of reference?

What if you know all of this and still you want to experience the suffering of mortality?  By all means, indulge yourself, I say. 

But beware of the repercussions. 

Because with all things there is a vibratory nature and the frequency you hold creates the magnetics of this energetic world, like attracting like energies.

So, when you indulge in the suffering of mankind- I’m now speaking of self-pity, self-incrimination, pain within the body, pain of living with abusive people, if you are living in this vibration, then it is only natural that the reciprocal energy will bring more suffering.

You may be asking, “what an absurd premise, indulging in the suffering of mankind!!!”

Yes, it is.

And yet, as a light worker, as a mystic, as an intuitive- it is not hard for me to “fall asleep” back into the Maya of this world, the illusions of suffering. 

(I just want to state here that all beings are intuitive, just as all beings are always connected to the greater energies, the Divine energies of the world, and though they may not have acknowledged these truths, nonetheless they are true.)

It is within my mind that I control how the world responds to me. When I say mind, I am speaking of how I interpret the feelings of my body, the emotions of my mind, the perspectives I view the world from. It is from there that my mind can spring into action, conjuring up all sorts of scenarios- “What did that lady mean when she said’ Blah, blah, blah?” Or “What did it mean when so and so looked at me that way?” Or, my favorite, indulging in past actions and behaviors, “How could I have behaved in such a manner 25 years ago? What sort of person am I?”

This is the realm of suffering that is intrusive and absolutely not productive, but a place that many of us go- mostly out of habit.

You have only one moment, and that is NOW. And NOW. And NOW.

Anything that is outside of that NOW is just a faded memory or a projection of the Future. It cannot be true.

Therefore, the emotion that is attached to it is erroneous.

That is not to say that you are not feeling something.  It is just to say that it is just a feeling.  Those feelings need to be felt, but not with attachment. Of course, if you are experiencing a great trauma such as a death it is imperative that you allow yourself to grieve but allow yourself to feel through it.
give yourself time.

Practice:

Feel it. Close your eyes and allow yourself to observe the emotion and let it wash through you.

Breathe into the feelings. Maybe you will want to cry a bit. That is a form of release. You can say to yourself, ”I release this now!”

You can even wave your arms about you and say, “I clear all cords of attachment* to this experience. I am sovereign, I claim my sovereignty now!”

Feelings not fully felt get stuck in the body. The breath will connect you to your heart therefore taking you out of the mental neurotic repetitive mind.

Yesterday, at work, some students I hadn’t seen since before the “pandemic” came to a lecture offered to the community on Mental Health.  It took me a beat to remember exactly who they were and in what context I knew them.  When the memory came rushing in, and I turned to hug these ladies, a tear came to my eye. I was very emotional.  I gave them both a big hug, opening my heart and sending love. The feeling was profound, and I realized how much they had meant to me in my journey. 

Later, while on my break, I read a family chat about an impending birthday dinner, that I would be missing, as I live too far away to attend, the reality of living so far from my family, something I have lived with for well over 40 years. I was struck by sadness.  I allowed myself to cry.  I was alone and gave myself the gift of expelling all those tears, all the emotions I was feeling without having to tell a story about why I was feeling that way.  I let the tears fall, I let myself grieve without having to discover the whys. No story, just feeling. 

I recognized that those ladies and that time we had together was important, and I recognized that I loved my family, but I did not need to wallow in any of the feelings. I didn’t need to stop them- I didn’t need to categorize them, nor investigate them. I just needed to feel the feelings and let it all go.  

If you are on a path of self- discovery, and are looking to heal yourself from past abuse, whether perpetrated on you or self-inflicted, it is imperative that you learn to let go of old emotions and detach from the past recognizing it is not who you truly are. Rewrite the stories of your life just as a screenwriter can change the story line of a movie.  You have that power.

You are the only one you can save. It is an individual journey of self- discovery and reclamation.

Of course, you need to arm yourself with an army of support.

Firstly, you have a whole battalion of support surrounding you. It is your energetic team. Some call it the Divine, God, The Universe, your Guardian Angels. Call it what you like, but you must call this loving energy in to work for you.

You have heard that you have free will, and because of that you have to “Ask and you shall receive.”  Do not hesitate to ask.

Right now, say “Divine Beloved, let me feel your presence, show me a sign.” Or “I ask for your protection.” Or “Let me see a different perspective of this situation.” Or “Divine Beloved, show me how to forgive this person.”  Or “Divine Beloved, show me the next step to take.”

If you are willing, you will get some sort of guidance.  It is a practice of faith to know you will be guided. But you have to ask.

Personally, I ask constantly.  There is not one topic or situation that is off limits.

And you can be forceful in your asking. The Divine energy of which we are made of, is not attached to ego- it doesn’t care if you ask with an angry voice or a pleading voice, you just need to ask; and ask with a knowing that you will be answered. This is the secret sauce of asking for guidance, (or anything for that matter) that you know you will be lead.

“Ask and you shall receive, let your heart and mind be one.” Envelope your body in that oneness. It is imperative that you feel that you have what you are asking for.

Some call this prayer, but it need not be relegated to the church or beside your bed. You can be in prayer at all times- in fact that is a good way to live. Allowing your higher self to guide the way.

Secondly, you need to listen.  You need to carve out just a little bit of time to tune in- tune within.  Even if you can only give yourself 10 minutes a day- that is enough to start.  Can you sit for 10 minutes?  Abraham, of Abraham Hicks suggests that you listen to something like the air-conditioner, or fan in your house (if you have one), a mechanical sound that is repetitive, that you can tune into.  Others will tell you to concentrate on your breath, being conscious of the in breath and the out breath. When you find yourself thinking about the laundry that needs to be done, just go back to the breath. In and out.

There is a plethora of meditations on You tube.  I suggest you do a silent meditation at least for 10 minutes.  Guided meditations are wonderful too, and again there are so many available for free, you have no excuse to not meditate!!

It is imperative for your wellbeing!!!

And that brings me to the Third point- reprogramming your mind.  We have been fed a lie. Our whole life, within our family, within our schools, within our society. A lie that says that what is important in external.

No!!!!  The truth is that you have all the knowledge, and the knowing, all the love and the bliss. It all lives within you. Your relationship with your inner world is where you will find peace and contentment. In fact, you will never find peace and contentment until you find it within.

If, however, you go within and only hear negative chatter, that is what needs to be reprogrammed. 

You are fundamentally made of love. You are LOVE! You are loving kindness! Sit in that for a bit.

Practice:

Place your left hand on your heart and say, “I am love. I am loving kindness.” Say for 15 times a day and you will notice a shift in your world.

If you are a very super sensitive person, an empath, you are likely to have many feelings that are not generated from within. That means you are like a sponge soaking up the energies, thoughts, and feelings of others. It is within your prevue to protect yourself through boundaries.

Boundaries can include the energetic placement of forcefields around you- this is not a joke. All you have to do is command a bubble of light or add a color- violet is powerful- all around your being.  You can do this at any time, but it is recommended that you get in the habit of doing so as a matter of course in your morning routine.

It is within your right as a being to set up protections in order for you to thrive.  That means that you can say, “I prefer not to hug”, or “Please don’t show up at my door without calling first.”  This is your sovereign right to care for yourself.  Please don’t allow the should’s and ought’s of societal expectations rule you.

You are the center of your Universe and how you vibrate, the energy that you give is what you will receive.

As the Beatles would say, “ And in the end, the love you make is equal to the love you take”

*Clearing cords of attachment does not make you love others with whom you have cut cords less, it just cuts the unseen attachment to the situation, releasing energies that are not productive for your clear vision and sovereignty.